I'm not sure how I'm going to cope with Christmas. It will be the first one since losing my hubby. I've been told the first one is the worst, but I found the first birthday and anniversary were really upsetting. I will be at my sons, but there will be quite a few other people there, and I'm so scared I'll break down and upset everybody. I'll try really hard not to, but it's really worrying me. How do people cope? Barbara.