I have to say that I wish I had, had the type of drugs such as epidural that is offered now. I had so much pethadine doping me up that I wasn't even on the same planet and quite frankly, all i can remember was pain. Aidan said I was yelling and screaming and he expected my head to start spinning round (as in the exorcist lol) but I have no recollection of that. I only really was aware about half an hour before Chris was born, as I had to sign papers for a possible caesarian and so they kept trying to bring me into the here and now.

I was so exhausted by the time he was born that they wouldnt let me hold him until the next day, I just got a brief glimpse. Not the best start but I made up for it by not letting him out of my sight in the hospital (where I was for a week - everyone else was let out after 5 days) even though they kept offering to take him as he wouldn't sleep.

Pain relief nowadays is so much better.

I would do it all again though, to have my beautiful son. I love him to bits, he is still my world and I don't begrudge a seconds pain.