I'll always think I did a lot wrong, because I did, and as nothing can change that I won't stop thinking it. I do, however, know that my sons love me and they know, I hope, that I love them. We can talk about absolutely anything, and always actually have been able to, and that'll do for me. It could've ended very differently though but it didn't. We all wanted it to be good so we all made it good. Today and the future is what's important but if I don't remember the things I did wrong I might do them again and I don't want to do that. Remembering stops me repeating.